Your words are exactly my feeling right now. We had a business together that we worked at every day together. I left my whole family to be with him. Your kisses fell sharp on my flesh like dawn-dews from the limb, Some say you will get over it, well if you haven't lost a loved one close to you, you will never get over it. Finding guidance and encouragement from a . I just don't want to believe that I'll never see him walk through the door again. I feel so much guilt; but isn't a wife supposed to call their husband when in need? He also had a stroke in 2016, which impaired his left side beyond what ALS had done so far. We have two children, two boys ages 11 and 6. I tell myself that he is away on a conference with him job and one time I will look up at see him. Its been 27 days and feels like yesterday. Any thoughts would be great. I, like you, miss hearing his voice. But in the middle of the when children have slept, loneliness is unbearable. Perfect WhatsApp image to send each other to start a new day by Saying I love you and I . He died at home with me and our youngest daughter at his side. Will I ever stop feeling guilty for being alive while he isn't. I had 30 wonderful years with him. We had a good, solid marriage. When I read what you wrote it was strikingly similar to how I feel. I cry all the time. And tonight I'll fall asleep with you in my heart. I will love and miss you forever, Paul. They did all they could, but his was also a heart aneurysm. My husband went to the hospital on February 24 with complaints of pains in his left shoulder. He lost a long battle with Alzheimer's and several strokes. He got up in the morning and got dressed and went outside like he normally did every morning to get some air. We were out having drinks with friends and decided to go back to their place. Hi, I just lost my husband, Michael, the love of my life. It is a sad and lonely way to live, but I don't know what else to do. Each day I am certain he is with me . I know God is near, and I continually pray to feel his presence to get me through step by step. It has been 5 months and 14 days since I have seen his beautiful face, but yet it feels like yesterday that I saw his beautiful face. It was my first instinct as he was only 1 minute away in walking distance from our home. If you have children to remember him by, then they need you, and you need to live for them. I think he knew. I miss his little jokes and all our trips in our camper van, and I wish I could join him. She passed just 12 days before she was to meet our great grandson for the first time. We were supposed to grow old together. I still need him! I lost my husband at 47. I was hurt and devastated. We were devastated and still grieve his loss every day! He was taken from me with an illness that they knew little about. I can't put into words how much he meant to me and our children and how much we miss him. more by Kathy Murphy. We just became grandparents. He loved my kids like they were his own. He was 49. She had 10 radiation treatments and only 1 chemo because after the first chemo treatment she came home and collapsed, so we had to bring her back to the cancer institute. He was only 65 and healthy. He was 53 years old. Screaming desperately, I called 911 and sent my children to get my neighbor. I miss him terribly. He began asking me who I am. He lost his voice. Here I am with our son at the age of 12 when his father passed away and not understanding how this can happen. I pray he is with me and our 3 kids in spirit. He loved them before he even met them. She was diagnosed only 2 days before our 2nd daughters wedding (she missed) in June. I go over that morning every day in my mind, thinking maybe he called me and I didn't hear him. He was so excited to be a grandfather, that every time I leave my now grandkids, I cry because I know what he is missing and it breaks my heart. We adopted our 2 grandchildren, so I have plenty to keep me busy. How. I lost my wife 22 years ago. I wear his wedding ring on a chain. Did you spell check your submission? That's when I found out. He suffered with cancer and it finally beat him. My heart is just broken, and I'll never get over this. He's able to come home after 8 days. My whole being aches; I am consumed with thoughts of our life. Then I'd had enough of seeing him suffer. Your mesmerizing touch. Everyone says it will get better but, until you've lost the love of your life, your bestfriend, your husband and soulmate you will never understand my pain or what I'm going through. My husband passed away in 2011 and I am trying my best to do what everybody expects of me. And was loved in return. How much I miss you. My world is upside down now. I had never been married, he gave me the self confidence in myself to excel in my profession. I may as well be deported to Mars because every day I feel like I am lost on this planet. Until then, I know he would have been proud of my strength. You need some type of spiritual guidance to make it day to day. He would have been 48 next month and was fit and healthy. Motorcycle accident. And while I know God will get my through this, my heart still breaks when people only want to say time will heal, when I really just need someone to let me cry. Taking one day at a time, often with tears streaming down my face even when I am remembering good memories. He passed one week after bringing him home. Our marriage had a lot of problems at the end, so I did not expect to be irrevocably and deeply affected by his death. To me those lost anniversaries are what really hit hardest. He took care of me as I have chronic pain due to a back injury. I'm not ok - but it's normal - normal to feel empty, sad, alone in a crowd, angry, guilty, abandoned, loved, left, different, impatient and no idea who you are or what you like as a single person. I am lost. I am in the air that you breathe. The nights are long, the days are short, and I keep praying and hoping it will get better. 24-hour care every day with Hospice nurses. We were married 10 years. I don't have many friends and I don't work. Rose Carroll, Moving Forward By He would tell me he can't wait until he retires so he can buy a brand new blue Ford pickup truck and we can just relax and go riding! Life doesn't mean a lot anymore, Everyday he brought a smile to my face and my heart, and he brought joy to my soul, But Praise be to God, I do have the hope we will be re-united forever one sweet day, Gods blessings to you all. May 19 will mark the 5 month mark of his death and it is also our secondary anniversary, even though we were only married 2 years we were together for almost 25 yrs. Nobody could take his place because he was a one of a kind. I guess I came here to seek help in some way or just to talk to others who've been through the same thing. The doctors said his tumors were shrinking. I am in the rain that fills your springs. It never goes away. am trying to be strong and move on but it is hard. By XO. I am coming up on a 5 year mark when I lost my husband. Now what do I do? Just please know you're not alone and I'll be sending love and prayers to you. Just knowing I have to live my life without him scares me, I will cherish the kind of love we had for one another forever. He is with me always as he'd promised me faithfully he would be. I cry every day and can't believe . No more do I get to hold his hand, hear his laughter, and hear that beautiful heart. I lost my husband to murder. This poem is rather lengthy, but you can share an excerpt from it at your sister's funeral. I had to keep living for our sons, but inside part of me died with my husband. Life was wonderful and safe with him. I miss holding his hand at night and talking to him and watching TV. Everything was fine. I lost my John on 18 December 2008. I lost my husband of 23 years 5 months ago - 10/27/18. But through all his tribulations with this evil demon he stayed a wonderful father and husband. I refused to believe what the doctors were saying. Grieving is so hard and painful when you miss them so much. I did all I could to help him. I can see his face everywhere I go or in anything I do. He should still be sitting in his recline. They are buried across from each other. We were married 15 years, and he was 38 years old. They put her into the hospice facility where she lasted 8 days until I was with her when she took her last breath. We were together 20 years. I function and get through the day, but I am sad to the bones. Grieve all you want. I am still grieving. My dear husband had never been sick yet the last 17 days of his life was in a hospital. We all miss him so much. I found him gone in his sleep Sunday. I feel for you. It's all a bad dream. It's those questions every day and no answers. He never pulled through. He was a wise man and had so much to give. Right now I don't eat, I've lost 20 pounds, I hardly sleep, I don't sleep in our bed but on top of a daybed. I met him when I was 17 and he was 23. He would not have done as well if I had died. November 2, 2019, he died. We were together 27 years. I'm good at pretending to be o.k. I miss you crawling back into bed in the middle of the night and whispering how much you love me and how we were going to spend the rest of our lives together. Dear Cheryl Most days I feel like I just want to be with him as it is next to impossible to push myself to move on. My husband that I love so much passed away 7 months ago. I write a letter to him most evenings, and it's as though he is still with me, as he will always be. I know it doesn't get any easier as time goes by because I lost my husband 9 years ago from complication from a surgery he had and to come to find out he had cancer. She had so many activities and friends. The best advice, love and empathy came from widows that had already been through the heart wrenching pain of loss. He was enjoying the life. My life is so lonely without him. I don't think you ever stop missing a loved one. My husband passed away July 8, 2016, from mini strokes that gave him dementia at 63 years old. We have a 33-year-old son and he is everything to me. I cannot go to bed. This in turn made him unable to walk without help. To say I am devastated is not even 100% of how I feel. Lots of people, lots of advice, lots of choices, but in the end whatever you do will be the right thing for that time. Now it's silent. He was my rock, my best friend. I do not have to pretend that I am fine, that I am strong. Massive heart attack. The emptiness I feel consumes me and as the days go by it gets harder and harder to go on. My husband passed away on June 5, 2018, from extensive non-small cell lung cancer. People tell me I should get "over it". He was my world and he is still my world. I woke up, realizing he didn't come kiss me goodbye. I hope you find some peace through counseling. I miss him so much. Do NOT submit poems here, instead go to the. Mostly for my four children. Advice? I can't seem to move past why this happened to such a beautiful soul. I still feel so empty and hope that I will eventually feel like a normal human being again. He was a great, honest man who I was blessed to have in my life. Sending many prayers your way. I truly thought I could not go on without him but every day gets better. He passed in his sleep. I've just read your post and I couldnt believe how close it is to my nightmare that I'm now living in. I wish I was the one to have found him so my son could have been spared such pain. I lost my husband on February 1st, 2017. My diet . I'm so sorry for the loss of your husband. We had lost our first son 49 years before. It was a shock for me. I'm 17, going on 18 in January. I feel as if my heart will never stop hurting till I can see and be with him again. At home, if I am not crying and turning into a puddle, I'm numb. She grew from childhood, losing a lower leg from a farm accident, cancer tumor on vertebrae, paralyzed for over 2 years, cancer of the breast, 25 blood transfusions. Every day feels like another heartbreak. I love you my beautiful Angel and I CANNOT wait to see that beautiful smile again!!!! But in a second, I knew he was gone. He lost the battle and he's now resting with the Lord. Every day I wish I could tell him how much I need him and miss him. Don't put a time limit on grief. We lost him at the tender age 47 due to a heart attack. 15) My heart cracks open. I have three and they are so young. I'm 32 and I am just trying to deal. It's going to be a long haul. I miss my husband so much. . He loved her. I just have to know if I will survive. Melanoma took my Elliot away from me and I am angry at the world. I was 16 and he was 23. I look at my 3 girls and see how brave and strong they are but are still in so much pain like myself. I stay up all night because I just don't want to lay without him there beside me. We grew up together. I am so sad. Nothing will make it better. We miss you every second of every day. Thoughts of us give me comfort looking back in retrospect. My heart is broken into a million tiny pieces. He passed away September 28, 2018. I had 11 years to go until age 66. It's says everything in my heart ..and more!! I miss him so dearly. I hurt beyond hurt, my heart is so heavy. My husband passed away on Feb. 26, 2017. I am in constant pain, and my eldest sees my heart. I don't feel strong. He made me whole, and for that I am forever grateful. He was 18. He was our center, our life evolved around him. I still and always will wear my wedding ring on the correct hand. The date of their death is bittersweet as it was the anniversary of our first date. The pain is so intense that I can only let it out in dribblesthroughout the day. I'm angry at myself, at the doctors, at him. He was in the Navy. I can't fix this. I also talk to my dad, and no, I'm not mad! I am sorry for the loss of your husband. I keep trying to get my life together{ Other peoples words not my own}. Will I ever stop wanting him to be with me?| I just don't know how I will survive without him. On the same day, unknown to my son, my daughter gave birth to her son. I feel a number of different emotions, sadness and sorrow to anger and despair. We have three grown children, and a 17 year old who will soon graduate high school. Your comment struck a chord in my heart because your loss occurred five years to the day I lost my mom--my best friend. I am depressed, in shock, and do not want to believe that my love has gone, and it's getting worse and worse. It's so hard to be without him: his touch, his arms holding me in bed so peaceful, waking in the morning with him. Or all the riches that the East doth hold. I lost my reason to live on June 12, 2017 and just flat out do not want to go on without him. We had so many plans, so much to see and do. Our 30 year marriage was a wonderful one. We had been married 50 years and together 56 years--since we were 15 years old. And life is no longer standing still but purpose is unfolding. There are days that I feel i can do this, but then there are days where I feel like I don't want to. She was into family history research and was able to go back to 19 generations. I love him and miss him every minute of every day. I'm waiting to see her again. Yes I am still angry at the senseless act of some one else, that caused the life to be taken from my husband & father! I just lost my husband on the 5th. Without a clue, His words echo in my mind, and I feel like his wisdom resonates in my heart. I felt like screaming and could not believe what I heard. Sadly that clock stopped at 38 (this year 2 years after would have been the first big one-the 40 and how much I was always looking forward to that number!). The hardest thing I had to do was come home and tell our children, 16 &18, that their dad is never coming home. I knew from the moment he introduced himself on our first date, that this was the man I was going to marry. Best friend for 30 years and married for the last 16. Today is our 36th wedding anniversary. We have been together 19 years. Tried to honor him and his trust in who he thought I was. Nothing helps to relieve your pain. <3 Reply by Mcgeorge Bsure 4 years ago I never could have made it without God. What makes Family Friend Poems collection of published poems special? Featured Shared Story I lost my wife on February 4th, 2021 to cancer after 4-and-a-half-year battle in remission. Time, just only passes by. Nothing makes me happy because my love is not here with me! I'm so angry. I hate to see you walk out that. He was the love of my life. Our daughter was pregnant with our first grandchild and my husband died 2 1/2 months before he was born. I miss my husband: his hugs, his laughter, his fussing, his silliness. He was too young to go so soon, it was never a supposed to be this way. Missing your husband is bittersweet. I can't explain the sorrow I feel. He took 1 good breath and another then one tear, another breath and he was gone. 3. 8) Missing my husband Has become my hobby These days he never Spends any time with me I try to kill time While he is at work, busy I want him to know That I miss him terribly 9) I don't just miss you When you are at office I miss you even when I want a sweet kiss I don't just miss you When I have nothing to do Of you I am reminded When I am blue He got up to go to work, as always. Being aware that ALS would take him did not help us prepare for the immense loss we feel. I try to smile & put on a "happy" face for the world. We were fortunate to have found each other, and I know that I was the love of his life. He went to work and never came home. He was dying before my eyes. I began CPR, I could not get him to wake up. Her family all going well into their 70s and 80s while she got screwed at 62 years! Don't forget about it. Died on Feb. 11, 2017. He was told he had this on Sept 13, 2016. My husband, the absolute love of my life passed away 5 months and 2 days ago. We have 3 children (2 boys: 22, 20 and daughter: 17) and a 3 year old grandson. One foot in front of the other & try to smile! We fell in love and were married. Xx. Kill yourself when you are depressed? He had a birth defect of the heart and suffered through several strokes, brain swelling, cardiac arrests and then fungus took a hole of his heart and ate the top part of his heart. Mostly for my 2 precious daughters. He stayed in his wheelchair a hour or less then wanted to go to bed. I'm so lost and angry, and I feel like I might be losing my mind, and more than anything else I feel like I need to be a better person for my babies. I rushed home, but they went to the hospital; she was in a coma for three days then died. We were so happy. He collapsed at the airport and they took him to a nearby hospital. Sometimes I just cry, and sometimes I want scream. I'm devastated. Hugs to you. He passed away at 22 years old on November 07, 2016. He was my everything. Missing you is heartache, that never goes away A thousand words won't bring you back. I just can't comprehend what happened. He was where he loved and with all the people he loved. He had 2 stents put in the Wednesday before and said he felt great from Thursday to Saturday. Before two days were up my darling was gone. Elliot was my Husband, Lover, Friend, my person in every sense of the word. My son was the one who found his dad. I feel for you, and reading all these posts helps me see I am not the only one who is going out of my mind. But I wanted to comment on the fact that I believe you can also get your husband's Social Security at retirement age it's something you may want to look into. I cry every day. My love and prayers to you. Functioning in everyday life is excruciating pain inside my soul, which also includes the continuing pain I deal with in my back.

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